Thursday, August 25, 2011

Re-do

I was in some sort of business/hotel/conference building. The leaders of some corporation had just arrived when there was an attack. Several of the leaders were killed, and the place was in panic. For some reason, we couldn't leave the building, so everyone hid. The attackers were scavenging the place killing everyone who opposed them. I was successfully staying out of the way- moving from room to room. I'd drift between small groups of people. You couldn't really trust anyone because you weren't sure who the attackers were. This went on for a while until I was caught on the middle of a floor with a couple of other people.

Two large groups were coming towards us on either side. They weren't in sight yet, but we could hear them coming. But we still didn't know who to trust. So we scattered. We all went into different rooms. I ran into a bathroom. The bathroom was dirty, but I ran into a stall. I had to figure out how to hide. I thought about standing on the toilet, but for some reason, I stood in a little trash can. There was a little bit of pee inside, but I knew this way I couldn't fall, and they wouldn't see my feet. However, a woman must have seen the bathroom door closing because she opened the stall door and threatened to kill me.

She was one of the attackers, and she called for support. Somehow I managed to talk my way out of the bathroom and escape through the crowd. But they'd seen me. I was running through hallways trying to find somewhere to hide. I met a younger girl, and we huddled together under some blankets. The blankets somehow looked like debris, so as long as we were completely covered no one could see us. The bad guys were passing us by, and we were safe. But then somehow, my head became uncovered.

I told the girl to stay still, and she'd be ok. Then, a male soldier turned my way, pulled up his gun, and shot me in the head. I didn't have much time to think before it happened. I remember feeling scared and yet also surreal. I'd been safe so long, and this is how it'd end. When he shot me, I felt my body go limp. As blood drained down my forehead, I literally felt the 'energy' drain out.

It's hard to explain, but as color and light faded, I could also feel myself fade away. I knew I was dying, and it happened so fast. I wasn't watching myself; I was still seeing things from my perspective. And it was terrifying staring down the barrel of the gun, to see the blast of the bullet, to feel inner loss as I watched him leave as I died... almost.

Everything turned grey, and just as I was almost gone, my energy came back. But things were different. I was dead, but I was a ghost, and I was seeing everyone else that died- both good and bad. The crazy(er) part is that once you figured out how to touch physical objects you could pretend to be alive, and living people couldn't tell the difference. Then, I discovered that the leaders of the corporation were the bad guys, and the attackers were trying to get rid of them before they completed their plan- to kill a whole lot of people and take over the country. Well, the leaders were killed, but they mastered how to pretend to be alive, disguised themselves, and they were the ones terrorizing the building.

I knew I had to do something, so as I struggled to get used to being dead I went looking for people who knew what to do. I found 2 older women who were secretaries for someone important. They knew things, but they weren't able to do anything. I also met this other person who told me how I could fix everything.

The plan begun. I went back to the secretaries with a letter that explained everything and had them sign it in order to verify it was legitimate. Then, I went to this special secret place of the building. Then I through some powder and colored discs in the air. Some sort of magic or something started swirling everything in the room. Next thing I know I am in a different part of the building before the initial attack. I knew I needed to find someone in charge of the attackers, so they would only capture the corrupt leaders instead of killing them, and thus beginning the 'undead' rampage. I went to the secretaries who didn't remember me because they hadn't met me yet. I told them everything, and they thought I was crazy. I showed them the documents they had signed, and they were astonished. They began calling people. I ran to a balcony that overlooked the lobby. Within minutes, the "good guy" attackers came in just as before. People were screaming, but this time, they leaders were 'kidnapped' and take away. I remember feeling a sense of relief knowing none of the panic, hysteria, and my death would happen. In fact, I must have felt really resolved because I woke up.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

A Dreamer's Dream

This one is pretty crazy. I've had dreams inside dreams before but not to this extent.

So I was in a big, nice house with all of my fellow Walrond (the street I live on) neighbors. We were hanging out and eating dinner. For some reason, I decided to go to sleep.

My dream self then had a dream.

I was with my friend Melissa, and we were walking around some park. All of a sudden, we discovered this underground secret society. They were this community of people committed to living communally and eating organically. They didn't want to abuse the earth, so they lived under it. (Nothing I can say would make this less crazy, but it seemed really cool in the dream.) The place was huge, and you could see forever. There was a special place to sleep, eat, and play. Everyone was happy and super nice. They invited us to live with them, and we were contemplating it. I think I had decided to join them because it just seemed like a good place to be.

But then my dream self woke up back to the original dream. I 'woke up' to all of my Walrond friends around me, and just like in Wizard of Oz, I started telling them about my dream. I then pointed to each one and said "and you were there and you were there and you were there."

And then I woke up for real. Hahahaha.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Color

So as dreams go... I remember the dream as the chase has already begun. I'm joining a few people in search of someone. I don't know who or what we are saving him from, but I know that it is urgent. I know that I can't live without him- not just the cheesy romantic way but the suspenseful drama way. :) So we are running and driving and even flying (not the airplane, we are actually flying superman style) to get to this destination before it's too late. It's me, one other woman, and a man. The girl is like him (which I'll explain later), and the guy is a professor sort. He is good looking with glasses. They are both older twenties/younger thirties.

Eventually, we find the guy. He kind of looked like the professor guy except a little younger and no glasses. I felt this connection with him because we had risked so much to get to him, to save him, and I thought it was because he was supposed to be with this other woman or perhaps even with me. But as soon as we find him the girl wants nothing to do with him. She doesn't even care about him once he's safe. So while he's in the kitchen getting some food from his grandma, this other woman hooks up with the professor guy. The gross thing is that I think they were brother and sister, but it was ok because they weren't regular humans. They are different. (And not in a racial way) but they were color people. They had this inner soul thing that you saw as a color. Everyone was a different color, but you could only live in community with other colors. You could only take your color form when combined with others. (The color form looked like a big blob of color- red, blue, yellow, whatever- that just zoomed around.) For some reason, I had to join with this girl and professor. I wanted to be with the guy we just saved (he was a color too), but I couldn't. And once we were joined, I didn't matter to them. I had to go wherever they went. They were mean and bossy.

So eventually, I broke free from them. I told them I didn't want to be a part of them. I wandered around a ghetto looking downtown area, and this lady asked me who I was. I told her, and she tried to tell me I couldn't live outside the colors. I couldn't go back. I told her that I didn't care, but I would not join them. They didn't even notice I was gone. They were still zooming around. So then I went back to where this guy was. Why he was with his grandma, I don't know, but he was there. I told him that I didn't want to be with the other two. They were mean and never listened to me. I wanted/felt that I was supposed to be with him. He then explained to me that his Grandma was able to split her color. She was able to give one color somewhere and then live where she wanted to. I didn't think I could do this because I wasn't a real color. I was just given a color. But then he told me that I was a color. That I was lost and simply couldn't remember where I came from, but in fact, I was a special color because not everyone could split their colors. Only the elite few had the power. His grandmother was one, and so was I. I'd have to give one part of my color to the other two because once bonded together, you have to stay together. But then the other part of me could be with him there. He had to stay home with his grandma, but I was welcome to join him. I couldn't believe I was a color. And while I was realizing what all this meant... I woke up.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Forgot One, Found Another

Last night, I had a dream...

I was moving back to Colorado, and for some reason, I knew I had to get married. I don't know why, but it wasn't like the compulsion was an emotional desire. I literally had to be married or something bad would happen. I don't really remember the details beyond that. After this sudden and rash realization, it was settled on who I would marry through some matchmaking done by somebody. At this point in time I knew who it was, but later in the dream I couldn't remember who I was supposed to marry. I was so frantic because I simply couldn't remember who they told me I was supposed to marry. I was going through all the guys I knew but none of them were ringing any bells. I didn't know who I was supposed to marry. I became more distraught because I couldn't ask anyone. Everyone thought I was marrying this guy because I loved him which I had to tell them because they couldn't know why I had to be married. If they found out, the bad thing would happen. And so I am going crazy trying to figure out who I am supposed to marry without being able to ask anyone what his name was.

Then I had to go to a friend's wedding on my way home (and on my way to my wedding). I was trying really hard to remember who this guy was and about to cry because I couldn't ask anyone. Then all of a sudden I heard this voice and laugh I recognized. I turned around in my seat, and as I looked into the next room some people parted and there was my friend Kailin, who I know from Golden Bell. I was so excited. I remember thinking KAILIN!!!! I HAVEN'T SEEN HER SINCE BEFORE SHE GOT MARRIED. We practically ran to each other and had a long embrace. I think we might have been crying, but I definitely know we hugged for longer than the normal social time of hugs. I just missed her a lot.

I don't know how the dream concluded, but it was nice to see Kailin even if only in a dream. Miss you, friend! And to the husband I can't remember... see you later? lol